I just opened up my copy of the PKD Exegesis to a random page and the first thing I flashed on was, "I think 3-74 was something I did vis-a-vis the world that did not involve God. It involved world and information, but it was physical. I am the doubt, God allows it but it is satanic and rebellious. It is Satan the accuser of God's handiwork, Satin in me as rebel questioning reality under the guise of epistemological inquiry. It is hubris and intellectual arrogance yet God allowed it. It was -- has been -- blasphemy. World, which I questioned, came back at me in a subtle form..."